Life seemed crystal clear. I was naive. I am a computer science, not a psychology, major. I am Arabian, but not Arabian. I have no religious affiliations, I am not Muslim. I speak and understand Japanese a little, Japanese culture is interesting. My boyfriend is Asian, Chinese American. But most of all I am lazy as fuck.

I don’t have the will to keep on living; life is actually dull. I don’t have the courage to end my life though, so I will keep living for the sake of those who love me at least. I wonder what Chinese, Arabian kids would look like. I don’t like kids.

In this world there are some really interesting people, don’t you think? I do.